tonight, i sat on my living room floor with scrapbooking supplies sprawled out in front of me. i cricuted hall decs, worked from a list of names to create door decs, and for a minute i felt just like i did the last three years in the week before ra training.
i thought i'd feel different being on this side of things, but i'm still so nervous for training and so excited at the same time. i'm scared for what this year is going to bring. i'm still doubting my abilities and wondering if i'm doing what i'm supposed to. i worry that i'm not going to be the person i need to be to help everyone who needs me. i don't feel at all prepared, but i want it to begin. i want my ra staff here right now-- i want to talk to them and share my excitement with them. i want to continue to learn how to be a cc and get ready for grad school and experience everything. but i know it's going to be hard and scary and there will be many meltdowns along the way.
this side really isn't that different after all. or maybe i'm not as different as i thought i was.
You are SO ready. You were born to be a CC. :]
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