where've i been lately?

busy. that's where i've been.
the past few weeks have caught me back in the swing of "normal" cc life. after the rush and chaos of summer conferencing and the overlap into ra training, i honestly forgot what a sort-of scheduled day looks like. i don't know what i expected, but i really thought that i would continue to love every minute of my job. i thought that once summer was over and we had our new area coordinator, everything would be perfect and right. seeing as everything i've learned about res life tells me otherwise, i'm not really sure why i would think this.
nothing seemed to go right last week and i caught myself reevaluating my career path and looking at customer service positions at the new disney aulani resort in hawaii and even getting my teaching licensure (shudder). i hate that i'm still not confident enough in my self that it only took one person (who doesn't know me at all) telling me that i'm not strong enough to go into this field to make my life plans jolt out of orbit.
this week has been better. monday night my staff had a potluck dinner at my apartment before staff meeting. i baked chocolate cupcakes and made peanut butter and vanilla icing. yesterday i went out to dinner and to the movie one day with a friend. today we talked about the aimho conference in albuquerque in cc meeting and i realized it's only a few weeks away and got so excited. tonight i've done a lot of thinking about myself, my goals, and my future as an sa professional. tomorrow, i have a game night planned with another friend. and friday i'm packing, doing laundry, and getting ready for our week in california. i'm more than ready for a week off.
in all of the chaos i've been constantly reminded that i can do this. i can handle angry parents yelling at me on the phone because ferpa prohibits me from telling them anything. i can do 14 judicial reviews in two days. i can survive a week on-call and respond to crazy late-night emergencies. i can respond to a chipmunk running loose in the juniper lobby and remain calm. and i can handle this and anything, just because i haven't seen it yet, doesn't mean i couldn't do it. and tomorrow i'm going to say that.
everything here has changed (again), but it'll all turn out the way it should.