as happy as i have been and as much as i have loved being the cedar hall (ponderosa, hillside, and college view) community coordinator, i think it's time to finish this page in my life's book. i think i'm ready to move on. find a new adventure in a new town with new friends and challenges. so, i'm in a weird sense of deja vu: downloading grad school applications, compiling deadlines on a calendar, scheduling the gre, reading, studying, hoping, praying.
i feel like my days here are numbered even though it's only october. i'm scared to leave and a part of me doesn't want to. i want to stay here, even though it's been so difficult to be here when everything i love about cedar city has left or changed. i'd planned on staying for two years, but some of the changes here are pushing me to adapt and potentially move on. i've been met with lots of people encouraging me to leave and being oh-so optimistic about my admittance to one of my top choice grad programs, but i'm also finding all the people who truly want me to stay for just one more year. my heart is so torn between doing something "selfish" and leaving or staying to help those i love.
the next few months will be very telling. aimho (and aimho college) are in a month and i can't wait to be surrounded by other housing professionals from this region. i'm even more excited for two days with other new professionals during aimho college. i hope that after this experience i'll have some clear decisions as to what i want to do.
keep tuned in folks; things are about to get interesting.
What grad programs are you looking at???? I'm looking at Georgia, Michigan and some others back East... but I'm also looking at the University of Utah and Colorado State.... are you going to study Educational Administration?
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