Saturday, June 28, 2008

Both Sides, Now

I finally decided on a permanent title for this blog.  I've been listening to a lot of Joni Mitchell songs lately, and my new favorite is "Both Sides, Now."  She sings, first symbolically, about seeing "clouds from both sides, now" and then moves on to love and life.  The resolution is always "Still somehow it's clouds'/love's/life's illusions I recall: I really don't know clouds/love/life at all."  As soon as I heard this song, I immediately connected it to my heart.  I know exactly what she means about looking at life from 'both sides' and realizing that I don't understand life at all.  

So, why would I choose such a melancholy and lost title for my blog?  Because right now I am lost.  I know this is right, I know it's what I want, and I know that I am going to do my best.  But I also realize that this is a look at Juniper "from both sides, now."  I'm going to have to change my perspective and revisit my opinions and feelings.  I'm ready to begin seeing this opposite side.

***38 Days!!!!!!!***

"Both Sides, Now" -- Joni Mitchell
Bows and flows of angel hair and ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere, I've looked at cloud that way.
But now they only block the sun, they rain and snow on everyone.
So many things I would have done but clouds got in my way.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall.
I really don't know clouds at all.

Moons and junes and ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real; I've looked at love that way.
But now it's just another show. You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know, don't give yourself away.

I've looked at love from both sides now,
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall.
I really don't know love at all.

Tears and fears and feeling proud to say "I love you" right out loud,
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I've looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say
I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now,
From win and lose, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall.
I really don't know life at all.

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