Nightmares

I've been horrible at blogging lately.  My novel has been taking up the majority of my time lately.  Okay, I haven't really been working on it for about two weeks either.  I haven't really been doing anything except thinking about where I'm going in my life.

Before the end of the semester, I was woken up in the middle of the night by a strange noise in the corner of my room.  When I opened my eyes, there was a male figure standing across the room.  I  blinked repeatedly trying to wake up enough to make 'him' go away, but he wouldn't.  I was literally scared stiff.  He vanished, and then a flash of light darted through my room.  I don't know how long I felt my heart race as I scanned my room inch by inch while humming "I Am a Child of God" before I went back to sleep.  

The next night, my friend and I had creeped ourselves out and couldn't go to sleep.  We decided to have a slumber party in my room and both of us ended up sleeping on my floor.  Every sound in the hall frightened us-- my eyelashes scraping my pillowcase as I blinked even freaked us out-- to the point that I didn't think we'd ever fall asleep.  We must have finally dozed off, because at some point in the night I grabbed Rachael's arm and screamed.  After we'd both calmed down, we decided that we were scaring each other, and returned to our own beds to sleep for the night.

That was the last time that I woke up terrified in Juniper Hall.  I thought going home would be a comfort-- and for a few weeks it was-- but the last two nights I've been too scared to fall asleep. I was awoken again last night by what I thought was someone walking through my room.  I screamed, again, for the second time in a month.  I've never been a screamer, nor a nightmare person.  I don't like this.

But, when I was little the things I was afraid of could be seen.  Turning my light on could easily convince me that the 2 foot spider I was sure just crawled across my bed was a dream.  The things I'm so afraid of right now can't be seen.  Subconsciously, I'm giving them forms.  I'm hoping that I can clear things up soon.  This is getting to be ridiculous.